Why I am So Scared to Start a Blog
Hello friends, and welcome! I’m currently writing my first entry from the back of a minivan at a snowed-in Pilot truck stop, while vacationing in Colorado with my husband and two kids. I know what you're thinking, "Poor thing, she must be snowed in and has to sleep overnight at the gas station with her family!" Well, you're right about one thing. We technically are snowed in, but we've actually been minivan camping by C H O I C E for the past seven days, and we have three more days to go. Yup. We planned this! It's our second time actually, and it's been epic! (BTW don't worry, the seats in here fold down flat...think a full bed worth of space!) Still interested? Stay tuned for a “How to: Minivan Camping” blog post in the future!
So, I'm sitting here holding my 2 1/2 month old daughter in a fleece sleep sack, plus about three layers of extra clothes underneath, while my husband and 2 year old son are presently spooning for extra body heat (I promise we are all having a blast, and are also probably a little insane!). In the midst of the quiet, and everyone sleeping...and snoring...I find myself speculating the same question over and over. Why do I feel like I have NO community? It’s like I went from my college years socializing day and night, to now taking the elevator to the ground floor exit to avoid “running into anyone.” I've thought about starting a blog, or YouTube channel, for YEARS, but I could never find the will to commit because of my good old friend, Fear. Maybe you’ve heard of her? She likes to put you down, make you question every little thing, and discourage you to never take that risk you’ve been wanting to take that just might set you free! Why am I scared to start a blog, but I'm not scared to sleep in a minivan for ten days with my family, across the country, in the middle of nowhere!? I instantly knew the answer: a blog requires you to be transparent and vulnerable. It can spark one’s interest, or controversy. Deep down, I'm afraid that no one will listen to, or technically read, what I have to say, or worse… it won't be good enough.
After much contemplation, I heard a voice, pretty sure my own this time…telling me, Debbie Downer, if you never try, you'll never know, and you'll never grow! Taking risks, failing, succeeding, and failing again promotes growth! We learn from each and every risk we take, and are able to impact others with all that we’ve learned. Then, it hit me. I WANT to grow! Procrastinating another year is an exhausting option and excuse that I don’t want to keep offering myself. The only way to combat Fear, is to do the very thing she tells you not too! With that being said, I did that very thing, and “COOL, MOM, AND COLLECTED” was born!
I know you’re here to check out my blog, and I thank you, but I hope you also consider what this “mean girl,” Fear, is preventing you from accomplishing in life? Whatever it is, may not be worth the potential years of regret you may encounter if you don’t pursue it! If you wish to join me on my “fearless journey of blogging” (sounded cooler in my head), then please subscribe! I'll be sharing my thoughts on various “mom” topics, and how I challenge myself daily to allow my faith to shape my decisions. I'm finally ready to share myself and my life with you, and work towards becoming a more cool, calm and collected mom!
See ya NEVER, Fear…
actually, we likely will meet again. #dailystruggle
Cool, Calm, and Collectedly Yours,
